a lot has changed
yet at the same time...
loneliness still remains

john's parents kicked us out...
now living out of my trunk

god life can suck sometimes

so im in this boat right...
just drifting along
paddling every now and then

then out of NO WHERE a fucking shark eats my paddles!!!!!

life can be such a bitch!

have u ever been so stressed out that u actually get sick because of it?

god
right now im miserable
i have a headache
snot is so built up inside me that my head honestly feels ten punds heavier

i feel like im gunna barf
and that would suck so bad right now cuz my throat still hurts from yelling/screaming at my asshole of a step-father

damn stress sucks....

nice to talk to you again
so today is mine and john's one year and 6 month anniversary
wow, right?
a year and a half
my longest relationship
his longest relationship
the one that will last forever

he made me peanutbutter and jelly sandwiches for breakfast
they were very tastey
he cleaned our room too
and tonight we are planning on going to dinner and a movie
im so excited

yea...i bet to some of you that sounds pretty boring
whats so special about him cleaning our room, right?
well when u live with someone
even a small thing like making a sandwich is pretty damn nice
lol
god
i was so afraid that living togetyher would become boring
or that the little things wouldn't mean as much
lol
i was wrong....so wrong
i am loving and livimng for the little things
its great

oh
and u know how in gooey love stories they talk about how u fall in love with someone over and over agin
well....
its so true

this morning i saw him asleep on the couch
and i fell in love again
he really is as close to perfect as a guy could ever get

loving life!
hope u r 2!
xoxo!